Dear Younger Self,
Tonight I realized something about us, staring at the loaves of "Sunbeam" bread with "Not by bread alone" on the packaging and the little girl's head bowed in prayer.
Donnie said something then, when I refused to buy that bread and picked up a different brand, that made sense. He said that, in a way, the way we grew up was good for me. In that, it caused me to look at things, question things, develop my own opinions, question why I have those opinions.
It was awful, what we went through. I wouldn't change a moment of it though. Everything we have been through, everything we've done was for a reason.
I have to believe it was for a reason.
The majority of the time, you will like who you are. Even though there is still the underlying self-loathing. Even though you still question your every decision. Even though you wish you could just fix everything and make it perfect.
The trials, the tribulations, etc. I promise they will be worth it. At the very least, I believe they will be worth it.
love,
Me.
Tonight I realized something about us, staring at the loaves of "Sunbeam" bread with "Not by bread alone" on the packaging and the little girl's head bowed in prayer.
Donnie said something then, when I refused to buy that bread and picked up a different brand, that made sense. He said that, in a way, the way we grew up was good for me. In that, it caused me to look at things, question things, develop my own opinions, question why I have those opinions.
It was awful, what we went through. I wouldn't change a moment of it though. Everything we have been through, everything we've done was for a reason.
I have to believe it was for a reason.
The majority of the time, you will like who you are. Even though there is still the underlying self-loathing. Even though you still question your every decision. Even though you wish you could just fix everything and make it perfect.
The trials, the tribulations, etc. I promise they will be worth it. At the very least, I believe they will be worth it.
love,
Me.
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